And then the Fruit Comes
Every day, more blossoms.
I know it will not last.
But all week, the peach trees
do what peach trees do—
mature from green tip to first
pink to pink bud to bloom
and bloom and bloom.
It doesn’t last. But oh!
While it does, this urge
to be in it, to breathe it,
to be in blossom, too—
divide me into ten thousand
thousand petals of fluttersome
pink. Though I know
it will mean ten thousand
thousand times, all at once,
I’ll practice letting go.
**
But Do We Learn the Lesson?
In the orchard rows,
the cherries grow
until sometimes
the branches,
hung with so much ripeness,
snap. It happens,
it happens at last,
sometimes when everything
is at its deep sweetest.
It happens.
**
The apricots are gone, are gone
And the summer carries on.
In other rows, peaches grow red-cheeked
and sweetness gathers in the pears.
Surrounded by pleasure, sometimes
we still choose to mourn what isn’t there.
**
Wishful
After eating the peach
all I wanted
was another
and another and another
and a woman could go
wandering
from produce aisle
to farm stand to orchard row
and never find another peach
so full of O,
so full of sweetened
gravity, a black hole where
peach used to be—the tongue
now more
particular, now craving
what was once, now rummaging
trunks of time for the thrill
that riffed
beneath the fuzz, the
spilling golden juice, the mmm
of what cannot be labeled,
reproduced or
named,
the bliss of knowing that
the Big Bang banged and served up
such a peach
that curved
not only space but through
a woman’s sigh. Through pit where sun
has never
shone, this peach
has grown, has grown into hunger
that never might be met, but I will
taste
relentlessly, peach & peach, until
I find again the sweet-winged trill of
joy-song flesh that makes the lips
say O and O
again, and O
for the pleasure of perhaps an O
let us eat another and another
and another,
and if we find
another such one
such luck! such chance!
let’s eat it
quick and set out again
in search of more summer rapture.
**
For Pleasure
Piglet: How do you spell love?
Pooh: You don't spell it, you feel it.
—A.A. Milne
The more we know about peaches
the more we know we know nothing.
There is the science of it, so much
to learn about rootstocks and vigor
and nutrient sprays—how much
calcium, how much boron or zinc
and how much to water and when.
And the plusses of pruning them
into a V shape versus a four-limbed
open vase. And the best way to
discourage crown borers (as it turns out,
with pheromones so moths can’t mate).
Which varieties are sweetest, which
cling to the pit—it is all in the when
and the what of it. But more and more
I see how the how is a mystery.
There’s the alchemy of cell division,
the luck of escaping the frost.
But the how of it, how did the peach
evolve into globes of golden juice?
We write theories of efficiency, theories
of survival, theories of endurance
but what does it amount to, really,
when there is the luscious reality of peach,
and this is how, on the edge of
autumn, we might remember
not how, but why we breathe.
**
Haven
All night
the peaches
all night
my hands
all night
amber juice
and the scent
of summer
the flesh
of summer
this changing
tangle of low
angled light
and the sugar
that comes
with waiting.
**
Though It Took Me Three Hours
The pears refused to be tedious.
Thirty-eight
pounds of tree ripened fruit,
clear juice runnelling through long sticky fingers,
and O such a
blaze of rose blush on the yellowing skin.
One after another, I spoke to the pears
as I
quartered them, seeded them,
and carved out their stems. “You are beautiful,”
I said to
each one. And the pears were long walks
on April afternoons. They were full moon fleshed
and coyote
song. They were slender canoes.
A mythology of want. Candle wicks
innumerable
coal trains, and summer coming to an end.
They were pears. And the whole house
simmered with
the white scent of Bartlett,
not a rehearsal but the real perfume of it,
anointing the
rooms with autumnal grace.
How every breath is now laced with their loveliness.
O summer
gone. O sweetness in its place.
**
Feeding the Hungry
“In our eagerness for conceptual meanings, we ignore
the actual beast.”
--James
Hillman, “Dream Animals”
It was no metaphor I bit into tonight
but the real
apple, sweet white flesh, crisp,
a thin red and green skinned gala picked from the
tree
in the center
of the garden surrounded by snakes,
not metaphorical snakes, but the real ones,
reticulated skin,
long forked
tongues a-flicker, all glisten and slither and hiss.
And it is no metaphorical night tonight, but the
real one, dim,
with half of
a milksome moon mounting the real horizon.
And the loneliness, that is real, too, though I
cannot point to it,
touch it, nor
bite it. Nor can it bite me. Nor does the darkness
dislocate its jaw to swallow me whole.
Nor does the
moon illumine my mind.
But the apple does make it a sweeter solitude
as I think of
you, the real you,
and all the skins we’ve shed, discarded, how many
times
we’ve
launched anew, and how I wish
your very real skin were here by my skin in this
very real dim,
your hand
reaching for what’s left of the core.